Have You Ever Loved An Angel

Have you ever met an angel
Whose smile is like the sun
Whose laugh is like a melody
That reaches everyone
Have you ever hugged an angel
Swept up in their embrace
And swear there's nothing in this world
That makes you feel that safe
[Chorus:]
Have you ever really loved an angel
Once you have you'll never be the same again
Have you ever had to let go of an angel
Say goodbye, let 'em fly, my angel, my best friend
Have you felt the strenght of an angel
When you need it the most
Lifted by those gentle wings
You know you're not alone
Every now and then I feel the peace inside
Wherever life may take me,
I'm guided by that light
[Chorus:]
Have you ever really loved an angel
Once you have you'll never be the same again
Have you ever had to let go of an angel
Say goodbye, let 'em fly, my angel, my best friend
Cause I have really loved an angel
How could I ever be the same
Cause I have had to let go of my angel
Say goodbye, let 'em fly, my angel, my best friend
Beverly Mitchell


So I have only shared this with a few people. I really wasn't sure how to put this or feel. This pass February I was pregnant. I thought I might have been but wasnt totally sure plus I was at the academy doing Defensive Tactics. Well I took a HPT and it was postitive. I was a little upset due to the fact I didnt think I could handle 2 babies at once. Well I continued to go through the academy and I went tot he doctor the following week. As I done this the I got my peroid, I kept my doctor's appt. thinking I was wrong and so was the test well I took a test there and it came our postitive after a few moments. So she had me take a blood test. Well way waiting for the results I began excited I have my two kids it would be great they be so close in age and be best friends. Well the blood test came back Negative the doctor told me I was pregnant but miscarried; But not to worry it was not my fault because of the defensive tactics it was that the baby was not healthy or some bullshit she tried to give me. I was kina ok with it, but now I am not I was pregnant with another baby. I am a stern believer that once a baby is concieve it has a soul and is a baby, not a fetus, not an embryo or whatever the techinal terms are they give to try to make you feel better. I am ok with the fact now that my baby is an angel in heaven, but still I wish the baby would have made it. I am a little heart broken, but I will ok. The song above is perfect on how I feel. I thought I share.